The not tightly shut pandora box

i open your pandora box, once
and love came out of it
so did restlessness, confusion, jealousy

but i felt i was alive

Now i close it, maybe forever

Maybe i won't feel love
coming out of it
nor restlessness or confusion or jealousy

Yet i know
my pandora box is not tightly shut
and my feelings for you still roams

and yet i don't feel i am alive

and i wish i could shut that box forever

Jogja, 26 January 2008 - just a few days after the celebration of the estranged souls

*just unmeaningful ramblings as i was watching the rain today. as if it has something to do with the rain yesterday. except that i felt cold inside, just like yesterday*