The not tightly shut pandora box

i open your pandora box, once
and love came out of it
so did restlessness, confusion, jealousy

but i felt i was alive

Now i close it, maybe forever

Maybe i won't feel love
coming out of it
nor restlessness or confusion or jealousy

Yet i know
my pandora box is not tightly shut
and my feelings for you still roams

and yet i don't feel i am alive

and i wish i could shut that box forever

Jogja, 26 January 2008 - just a few days after the celebration of the estranged souls

*just unmeaningful ramblings as i was watching the rain today. as if it has something to do with the rain yesterday. except that i felt cold inside, just like yesterday*

Another pandora box

It's another box
i have, now regretting, chosen to open
with more regrets
for having to close it again

how many boxes do i have to go through again,
i will chose not to regret

*it's when you choose to shut down your own box, when i choose to open it. i was not sure how i felt, either. but still it hurt in the closing*

Goodbye Pandora box

I choose to have the Pandora box shut
forever
or else,
i will lose myself again
in this abundant but scarry know-it-all trap

*let's choose to live with it*

I feel like i have known you from my sweet past - is it?

i feel like i have known you from my sweet past
and that the world just befalls like another migreh

*would i confuse you with my bleak memory, as the cocoon has yet to break out of the pandora box?*