The not tightly shut pandora box

i open your pandora box, once
and love came out of it
so did restlessness, confusion, jealousy

but i felt i was alive

Now i close it, maybe forever

Maybe i won't feel love
coming out of it
nor restlessness or confusion or jealousy

Yet i know
my pandora box is not tightly shut
and my feelings for you still roams

and yet i don't feel i am alive

and i wish i could shut that box forever

Jogja, 26 January 2008 - just a few days after the celebration of the estranged souls

*just unmeaningful ramblings as i was watching the rain today. as if it has something to do with the rain yesterday. except that i felt cold inside, just like yesterday*

you come and go
like the freezing wind in the heated summer
it's cool
but somehow
sometimes it cuts deep in the flesh

*i love you because i know no other way (quoted from Pablo Neruda)*

Waiting for the night

here i am with the darkest night
still glowing from the amber of the day
i ask not if you will come
and paint my night with pure solitude

but alas the night ends too soon
for you to brush the glow
i ask you not if you will regret
that i care not of yet another brisk morning

*for i only wait for the night*