My fear

To mysefl I ask if ever I fear anything
to myself I wonder if to me the world mean anything
but to fear that it would collapse beneath me

In myself I behold the fear engulfing
in myself I feel the pain quietly throbbing
but all through my veins it screams into infinity

To the world I ask if it ever fears anything
to the world I wonder if I mean anything
but a peck of dot it fears will not last eternally

Jakarta, 22 September 2004, 00:12AM
(in London it would be 21 September 2004, 06:12PM)

I ask myself if there is a gap in my life,
from where I could explain why I fear
such spaciousness and hope of abundance
Maybe, and maybe, they are just too much for me?

Secangkir teh mango n cinamon

secangkir teh mango n cinamon
hangat dalam cangkir ungu merah
mengepulkan semangat akan hari esok
yang penuh dengan janji

secangkir teh mango n cinamon
tak lagi mengepul
teronggok bagai cairan limbah
dalam cangkir yang tak lagi hangat

secangkir teh mango n cinamon
teronggok diam
tapi telah memberikan kehangatan
untuk jiwa-jiwa yang terlupakan

London, 2 September 2004, 07:38PM

get well soon!