A lone journey to neverland

It's just a long journey of being without anyone, but none other only with myself.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I want to greet and love you like the morning dew to the sun

I want to greet you like the morning dew to the sun,
though it disappears with the glorious ray,
its faith promises the beginning of another morning.

I want to love you like the morning dew to the sun,
though it sees not what it becomes during the sunny day,
its love pledges the hope of days of eternity

*I hope that it's not another deja vu. I just want to share my happiness with you, whatever your decision would be. And I am sorry, truly sorry. Life is so full of choices, but you can not have it all.*

Sunday, October 15, 2006

i feel i have known you from my sweet past,
and maybe for my sweet future?

Jogja, in a transition from the dry to rainy season
15 October 2006, 12:06 PM

*i am not expecting another deja vu. let's hope for a sail together where we might land on a island of friendship, or much better than that*

Monday, October 09, 2006

The Saddest Poem

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,and the stars,
blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Someone else's. She will be someone else's.
As she oncebelonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

(Pablo Neruda 1904-1973)
*we are the same no longer, just when the night is so full of stars, the sould is so full of love. it aint just enough*

My life

My life,
it's like connecting dots
I wonder if I connect the right ones

*are you at the end of the dots?*

Friday, October 06, 2006

masihkah ada deja vu
ketika semua kebenaran tak lagi ada?

*setahun sudah berlalu. dan tak akan lagi waktu berlalu*

Monday, October 02, 2006

We are now free

we are now free
as guiltless as the doves
no joy no hope no happiness
no grief no misery no regret

just another day goes by

*your ego wins*